I find myself daydreaming of America. In spite of her current situation, there are people there who I miss and will enjoy spending time with more than I would like staying away from the craziness. Im from a town of 30,000 people. I want to go and pick fruit/vegetables with my aunt and grandmother. I want to sit on back porches enjoying wine/tea/cocktails/grilled food and music. I want to drive on streets that lack crazy drivers and beeping horns. I want to let my windows down in a car that isn't so compact that I feel like Im driving a go-cart.
I want to go to any store with the confidence that what I am looking for will be there and it wont cost me triple what it is really worth. I want to feel like I would get help in public if there were some emergency that warranted stranger intervention (God forbid). I want a buffet that doesn't cost 100 dollars. I want to hear rain and participate in layering my clothes without burning up. I want to wear shorts without feeling naked.
I want to work longer hours (gasp!) with children who are able to communicate with me. I want to make more of a difference than I already am. I want to have full lessons. I want to hear questions and ask higher order thinking questions. I want to participate in class discussions and not have to wonder what the kids think of me. I want to be a productive member of my community. I want to grow as a professional.
No doubt going back is going to hurt. I see that rent has increased about 300 dollars from the last time I was home. If you can ease back into America by living with someone I HIGHLY recommend it. I don't even know if that will be enough. But it will have to do. Im on a 7 month count down Inshallah.
I want to go to any store with the confidence that what I am looking for will be there and it wont cost me triple what it is really worth. I want to feel like I would get help in public if there were some emergency that warranted stranger intervention (God forbid). I want a buffet that doesn't cost 100 dollars. I want to hear rain and participate in layering my clothes without burning up. I want to wear shorts without feeling naked.
I want to work longer hours (gasp!) with children who are able to communicate with me. I want to make more of a difference than I already am. I want to have full lessons. I want to hear questions and ask higher order thinking questions. I want to participate in class discussions and not have to wonder what the kids think of me. I want to be a productive member of my community. I want to grow as a professional.
No doubt going back is going to hurt. I see that rent has increased about 300 dollars from the last time I was home. If you can ease back into America by living with someone I HIGHLY recommend it. I don't even know if that will be enough. But it will have to do. Im on a 7 month count down Inshallah.
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